《一棵開花的樹》席慕蓉
如何讓你遇見我
在我最美麗的時刻、為這
我已在佛前、求了五百年
求祂讓我們結一段塵緣
佛於是把我化作一棵樹
長在你必經的路旁
陽光下慎重地開滿了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望
當你走近、請你細聽
那顫抖的葉是我等待的熱情
而當你終於無視地走過
在你身後落了一地的
朋友啊！那不是花瓣
是我凋零的心。
A Blossoming Tree
How do I present myself to you
When I am at my most glorious moments, for this
I plead to God, for five hundred years
Hope He grants us fate to be together
Thus He turns me into a tree
By the road you will pass by every day
Under the sun, I blossom
With every flower representing my hope for you
When you approach, I hope you can hear
Every shivering leaf is my passion waiting for you
But then, you finally pass by, without noticing
Behind you, shed to the ground
Oh my dear friend, those aren't petals
But my withering love.
(This is not a standard translation, but my own translation to the poem by Xi MuRong.)
Poignant. Beautiful yet saddening. So willing yet so reluctant.
To listen to a choir (National Taiwan University) rendition of this poem, click here. Beautifully expressed.
Thursday 15 May 2014
Thursday 1 May 2014
College #11 @ The End
So 29.4.2014 marked the end of my pre-university/college/matriculation life. This post is not gonna mention the do's and don'ts in matriculation or anything suggestive.
It was a relief, but also a sad thing. Relief is that I can at least have some time for myself, free from (demanding) lecturers, unending work/studies and less good environment. However, bonded with so many awesome people in a year from choir, students' representative council, class and lecture, mutual friends, crushes, roommates and much more, and now I know that we can barely meet each other anymore. So yeah now I am currently suffering from the post-college syndrome, still missing them a lot. I need time to adapt to a lonely and quiet life back in Kuching.
Yes so you can see how busy I was in the past few months, so I barely have time to update the blog. Semester 2 was occupied by choir, students' representative council activities and school work. These three may seem little for you, BUT THEN when you sum them all up it is a HUGE cross to bear. But then they are all very worth it when I think over it right now. Meeting people, sharing experiences, and building memories. Beautiful.
I guess I don't have many things to say. I just hope my Semester 2 results will be another 4.0, and soon will be offered a good course for my degree, and to all matriculation friends who came across this post by chance, I wish you all the best. If we live long enough we might be able to meet again somewhere sometime in the future. xx
It was a relief, but also a sad thing. Relief is that I can at least have some time for myself, free from (demanding) lecturers, unending work/studies and less good environment. However, bonded with so many awesome people in a year from choir, students' representative council, class and lecture, mutual friends, crushes, roommates and much more, and now I know that we can barely meet each other anymore. So yeah now I am currently suffering from the post-college syndrome, still missing them a lot. I need time to adapt to a lonely and quiet life back in Kuching.
Yes so you can see how busy I was in the past few months, so I barely have time to update the blog. Semester 2 was occupied by choir, students' representative council activities and school work. These three may seem little for you, BUT THEN when you sum them all up it is a HUGE cross to bear. But then they are all very worth it when I think over it right now. Meeting people, sharing experiences, and building memories. Beautiful.
I guess I don't have many things to say. I just hope my Semester 2 results will be another 4.0, and soon will be offered a good course for my degree, and to all matriculation friends who came across this post by chance, I wish you all the best. If we live long enough we might be able to meet again somewhere sometime in the future. xx
Friday 24 January 2014
Forgive me
I have no one to express my feelings to, so here I am telling this to you.
Your eyes kept me mesmerised, your face renders me awe-struck, your sense of fashion is like ice-cream on a hot day, your body drives me crazy.
I can't control myself thinking about you, liking you, missing you. Oh no. Please forgive me. Please leave me alone.
Dilemma.
Your eyes kept me mesmerised, your face renders me awe-struck, your sense of fashion is like ice-cream on a hot day, your body drives me crazy.
I can't control myself thinking about you, liking you, missing you. Oh no. Please forgive me. Please leave me alone.
Dilemma.
Friday 17 January 2014
College #10 @ Malaysian University English Test MUET
The first post in 2014, shall be dedicated to my MUET results!
I don't know how to describe my feelings. Take for granted? Relieved? Happy? Satisfied?
Anyways, I do feel very grateful for it. Many friends of mine got Band 4, and some even scored Band 3 (which really kicks them down into the abyss of depression). Sigh, what to do? MUET is a very standardised exam with a strict marking scheme where only the strong ones will survive, unlike any other typical matriculation exam for which the standard is always dependent on average nationwide results.
Knowing that my standard will be about a high Band 4, so I just tell the world I'm aiming for Band 4, with a "I-don't-give-a-damn" look, but who knows my little pump inside me is pounding like crazy! Deep down I really hoped to get a Band 5, and I did! Before this I tend to screw Reading and Writing Task 1 up, but seems like that day when I sat for the exam I didn't (if I did, at least not too much!). I thought I did better in speaking, but turns out the score ain't that high.
Band 5 ranges from 220 - 259. So my score is just merely higher than 220. Praise the Lord! I shall throw my own party!
I don't know how to describe my feelings. Take for granted? Relieved? Happy? Satisfied?
Anyways, I do feel very grateful for it. Many friends of mine got Band 4, and some even scored Band 3 (which really kicks them down into the abyss of depression). Sigh, what to do? MUET is a very standardised exam with a strict marking scheme where only the strong ones will survive, unlike any other typical matriculation exam for which the standard is always dependent on average nationwide results.
Knowing that my standard will be about a high Band 4, so I just tell the world I'm aiming for Band 4, with a "I-don't-give-a-damn" look, but who knows my little pump inside me is pounding like crazy! Deep down I really hoped to get a Band 5, and I did! Before this I tend to screw Reading and Writing Task 1 up, but seems like that day when I sat for the exam I didn't (if I did, at least not too much!). I thought I did better in speaking, but turns out the score ain't that high.
Band 5 ranges from 220 - 259. So my score is just merely higher than 220. Praise the Lord! I shall throw my own party!
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