College #8 @ HOME

I'm HOME. Finally :D

It has been a long time i didn't update this thing over here. So this shows how busy I was before the holidays. Way too busy.

Let me list what I did in those few months, in chronological order.
1. My choir performed for the National Day's Celebration in Labuan town. Two new songs, Jalur Gemilang and Keranamu Malaysia in a week's time.

2. We were expecting Perbadanan Labuan to invite us sing during the opening ceremony of Borneo Games, but we didn't manage to secure a slot for us. Instead, we choir members were told to dance. :3 It was the opening ceremony so they needed around 150 people to do the Contemporary Sports Dance. 3 teams of three colours, red, blue and yellow. Choir members were in the red team. The dance was all about incorporating sports movement into the dance. Our focus is on "silat" and "taekwondo". Pretty well done for us. We were not any kind of dancers, so in a weeks time, practising everyday, we were able to produce a tidy and clean dance, not easy, isn't it?

3. Then, on that very day after the dance we were told to produce a fifteen-minute song to be performed during the closings, which is a week after the opening. What the F***. And they still requested us to do a medley of different folk songs from different states in Borneo, i.e. Sarawak, Sabah, Brunei, and Kalimantan. They thought to produce a four part SATB choir performance with lively movements in a week is EASY? They thought we were all perfect pitchers? Screw them. This was when all of us were so sick (mentally) and stressed. We could only progress slow as practice time was very limited (school days). Which was about two hours per day. 5 SONGS. 15 MINUTES. As for me I got completely f**ked up as I needed to hunt for suitable songs, arrange parts and teach those members. I didn't do much of my homework that week, but only doing choir stuff. After every practice I would be worn out and I could only sleep. We did six songs, which were Rasa Sayang, Puteri Santubong, Chabuk-chabuk, Ampar-ampar Pisang, Cik-cik Periuk and Anak Kampung. And I lost my voice two days before that day. I thought I overused it. It got me a little anxious as I really sounded like my vocal cords were ripped off by wolves (Pitch Perfect line. :P) . Luckily I was the conductor, so yeah, I conducted and croaked. As for the rehearsal, we screwed it totally. The guitarist lost his way halfway through, and the members forgot the sequence of the songs. Obviously we didn't have enough practice cause we only managed to finish learning all songs one day before the rehearsal. Everyone was in a bad mood. So the next morning before the actual performance, we had a 5-hour session to brush up everything. Luckily it ran smoothly. That night I was pretty worried deep inside because the rehearsal really shocked me out of my wits, but just acted cool. Conductor bah.. We managed to nail it (not so..) and the audience got hyped up. Credits to the sporting athletes! They said the performance was superb, awesome, etc etc etc. I couldn't care less. I sacrificed a week for it. Too eff-ed up already. But at least they enjoyed it. I watched the video, and it was not as superb as described, oh wells.. As long as it was over and they enjoyed it. :P

4. After that I thought I could enjoy my time. But NO. After a week of honeymoon I got another call from my teacher-in-charge. Initially he told us we were invited to eat to celebrate. but few days later he said we will be performing, not eating, but the songs were those we sang on the closings. (F**ked up 50%) And I thought we didn't have to practice much. But three days before the actual day I was told that we are going to sing another three new songs, with parts. (F**ked up 100%) The teacher in charge thought we were geniuses. Indeed. That really sucked. We had no way to oppose anyways. So an arduous journey started again. Everything went well, except our f**ked up feelings were still there.

5. And the student's council launched the Peer Assisted Study Program (PASS), and I was the organising chairman. So yeah, another torture, but less.

6. The last major event is the PSPM! Our first semester exam. I screwed my Mathematics paper. Depressing. I don't think I can score an A for it. Bye 4.0. *waves goodbye* *sniff sniff* Oh wells, let the bygones be bygones.

Wow. This is a long essay. Haha. All I want to do now is enjoy the serenity at home for three weeks, before another series of torture begin.

HOME. <3

College #7 @ Leadership Training Camp, Sg Petani, Kedah

Along with other 18 students' representatives, we were given a chance to go to Cinta Sayang Golf Resort, Sg Petani, Kedah to attend a 4-day-3-night camp. Two hours of flight to LCCT, Kuala Lumpur then 9 hours of journey by bus to the resort.

Indeed memorable. New friends, new ideas of the Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar (JPP) (Students' Representative Organisation), and new programmes to be done.

A shoutout to my roommates (Room 483) from KM Teknikal Johor, KM Kuala Nerang, and KM Pahang, and the Chinese representatives all over the country, and representatives from KM Selangor. You guys are awesome! :D Thanks KM Selangor for the accommodation. Your college is new and conducive. *jealous* haha

College #6 @ Take it easy!

TAKE IT EASY.

I have been very stressed up for the exam. Chemistry, Maths and Physics down.

What happened yesterday was I found out I missed out one Lewis structure for question 4 immediately after I handed in the answer booklet. I was so desperate cause it was not something I don't know but something I not think of. What makes me worry more is that it is the first branch of the question, and I am afraid that it will affect the questions/answers below.

I was too stressed. But after talking to my mum over the phone, I feel better. :)

Then Maths. It was considered challenging for me (but difficult for others, heh) cause I think I managed to do all the questions with confidence. And I managed to solve a particular question where most people couldn't. *giggle*

Physics is a total brain killer. I used to be very weak in Physics since Form 4, for your information. It's not that HARD, but also NOT that EASY. There's this particular question, about principle of conservation of momentum, asking us to calculate the mass of an object, given the initial velocities and mass of the other object. The final velocity is xxx ms-1, but the direction is not stated. So many assumed that it is to the right, positive. But I assumed it to the left, negative. SIGH. Why is my interpretation always different from others? (insert crying troll face)

I don't care anymore.. I'll smile, walking on sunshine :)

Hope Biology tomorrow will be good!

A Mess

I am in a mess. Everything. Especially my feelings.

Back to college after a week's holiday. Don't feel particularly homesick, but don't feel the excitement back to college (or school, which i used to have) as well. The mid-sem exam is tomorrow. I feel okay, but also not okay - I am worried I couldn't score, or just slip for no reason (like my quiz for Chemistry). There's something under my brain telling me that I WOULD do bad. Achilles' heel : PHYSICS. X.X

Dramatic mood swings. Getting emotional. I don't feel angry, but I just don't know why the tone I used to speak to the others, including my mum and sister, sounds so FEROCIOUS. I don't know what's wrong.

Listening to some downloaded Glee songs. 'Just the Way You Are' and then 'I Dreamed a Dream'. My mood is like on a roller coaster. Changed instantly from happy to the opposite. I don't usually experience this. Normally after a happy song and I accidentally clicked on a sad song, I WILL immediately change a song, but today is different. What is wrong.

Perhaps I just need silence and peace for a short while, like what i told (barked?) my sister. To reorganise and revitalise.

Someone, HELP ME.

College #5

It's August.

It's almost time to go home, for a break. A break from all the stress and discomfort in college. (Y)

It has been a few stressful weeks. Pre mid semester exams and quizzes. I am too tired of those, And they have come to an end, and what comes after this is the real mid-sem exam. Although it is just mid-sem, and because it is mid-sem, the topics covered are quite little, so the weightage of marks is very high. The full paper is 40 marks for example, 1 mark means 2.5%. Yeah that's why I am very stressed. That's why I cannot aim for 80%, but 100% instead, so that 100% - 20% (8 marks deducted), I still have 80% as an A. And the percentage will play a 10% role in the final semester exam, so yeah, it affects your CGPA. :O

I need enlightenment. #fingerscrossed

Scribble (Cory's death)

Shocked to see news regarding Cory Monteith's death on Facebook. Then googled it. Suspected due to substance abuse.

OH ME GOSH. Even though I'm not so much of a Glee fan, but also not that I don't listen and watch Glee, I still feel so BAD regarding this.

Why do talented or good people die young? What on earth is so wrong with this planet. Sigh.

R.I.P Finn. Miss your voice. :')

#shocked #sad

College #4

MOTIVATION!

This coming week will be a hellish week. God-damn-it. Physics quiz, chemistry quiz, MUET speaking quiz, and students' representative thingy. I seriously lose the joy and strength to go on surviving in Labuan. I need motivation, that's what I tell my friends. I need someone for me to look onto, someone to motivate me go ahead, someone for me to be jealous of.

And at such hours like this, I texted a friend who achieved 4.0 (full mark) in Form 6 last year to ask her placement in local university. She, the genius, got a place in USM for Medicine! Oh me gosh. USM is the apex university, prestigious. Oh gawd. Despite the intense competition she got into it! Feel so happy for her. And of course, admiration and jealousy. XD So here comes MOTIVATION.

At this moment of next year, it will be my turn to face this. I HAVE TO STRIVE FOR THE BEST! And be her junior. Haha. Okays, time to continue studying for the quizzes. Ciao :D

College #3

Plagiarism KILLS.

For the first time in my life, I fail my lab report with a beautiful 0%. WHAT THE F**K. I was the victim. As a kid who does his work super fast and super good, automatically my answers are always the "model answers" for the other humans. What happened is that I lent my lab report to a friend, for her as an example konon, trying to be a bit more helpful, instead she copied 90% of my work. WTF. Our lecturer had been emphasizing that plagiarism is NOT allowed, but the friend seemed not to care. Yeah, you know I know.

*slaps myself for being so kind*

Luckily our lecturer said this is a continuous assessment, so I really have to improve (konon) in my forthcoming lab reports so that the ZERO won't affect my marks in the final exam. *trying to be more optimistic* Sokay, no more answer provider next time, Eric. You guys are now alone!

On the other hand of this stupid thing that happened to me, something good (or bad?) did also happen. I was elected to be an exco in student's council which guarantees a full 10% in co-curriculum. I got 575 votes, ranking no.4 in 29 candidates. But what comes after this will be HELL. A whole lot of work to do. Sigh what to do. For this, I'll accept it open-minded, and do what I can.

Erm and I think ... I have some good feelings towards a girl in my class. Not love kay, just a good impression. She's helpful, she's kind, she's polite, she's funny, she's active, she's bright, she's sporty. And i feel happy and comfortable with her.

Her last message to me by 9.04pm:
Ya i know it's hard for you, but I hope you can get through this and learn to let go. There is nothing Eric can't defeat right? ;) I don't think you should stop being helpful because of this. Try praying to God :) Maybe you will feel better

Hmm, some food for thought..

College #2

3 weeks of lecture and tutorials.

I AM WORN OUT.

It's a long way to go. All the best.

College #1

This is my first post written in college.

Reasons: On weekdays, I am busy; on weekends, I rest and sleep like a pig.

The first thing I would like to mention is about co-curriculum. Well, having dentistry as my first choice, the 10% is of UTMOST importance as it differentiates all 4.0 flat scorers. So there's this JPP (students' representatives) and KAKOM (inter-matriculation sports event) that guarantee a 10% full mark. Apparently I am not born to have sports genes, so my best choice is JPP. BUT, some things are keeping me from it. One, the procedure in choosing the representatives is election, which means you have to manifesto and campaign and sell yourself and popularise yourself to get more votes. And I dislike that. Popularity comes first, capability comes next. Obviously, in college, Chinese is the minority. Two, there are tonnes of events that is going to be handled by JPP throughout the year, when you barely have time to study for a 4.0 flat. Concentration distracted. So what should I do? I haven't made up my mind.

The second thing is about my roommates. They're friendly, but do have flaws. One, they love to interfere my lifestyle. I used to have naps. All these while I didn't have time to do so, so today finally I am free enough to take 40 winks at around 7pm, but, guess what did they say when they saw me sleeping.
     "Why are you sleeping at this time?"
     "I feel a bit tired."
     "That's why you should go work-out. To increase your stamina."
What on earth. Do you think all people on this planet love to work-out like you two do? Do I have to seek permission from you guys to sleep?

And they're inconsiderate beings. Playing songs via handphones out loud every night and every dawn, when people (me) is still sleeping. Talk (I can even regard it as shout) so loudly when people's sleeping. Do not switch off the bedroom lights even after past 12 midnight.

And the next one is they're messy beings. Clothes thrown and hung everywhere, put things on my study table, stack smelly clothes in the room. C'mon guys.

Well, I have to endure all these for another 10 months. Astagah.

The third thing, I'd like to complain about some lecturers. They don't explain clear enough, and we couldn't ask in lectures. SO what we can do is just to sit and stare at the slides, like you understand everything. Oh no. Another thing is the language medium they use. THE SYLLABUS IS IN ENGLISH! Why speak Malay?!

Finished with the complaints, now I move on to happiness. :D I join KML Choir, and is elected as the Chief Conductor. This would be a good experience to dive into choral music. And not forgetting to mention friends. I met quite a few new friends from Sabah and Sarawak, and some are really nice homo sapiens. Just some, minorities only. And I consider food in our cafeteria is GOOD and CHEAP. Everyday I long for lunch and dinner time to try out some new dishes. And also bumping into pretty girls. Some Chinese girls are really pretty! But taken. Sigh. "Just for display."

Facebook status on 25 May:
Survived one week in Labuan. 
1. Hot weather
2. Labuan people dont eat vegetables. (2 types veggies in 10 types of dishes.)
3. 30 Ferrero Rocher chocolates for RM24!
4. I found Nabati. 

(Nabati is a brand of cheese biscuits. IT IS AWESOME!)

Guess that's all. Ciao.