I got my SPM 2012 results this morning. It isn't the best I've expected but not the worst, though. I took 11 subjects.
Bahasa Malaysia - A+
English - A+ , 1119 - 1A
Mathematics - A+
Additional Mathematics - A+
History - A+
Biology - A+
Physics - A+
Chemistry - A+
Moral Education - A+
Accounting Principles - A+ , LCCI - 1
Chinese Language - A
The red statement is DEFINITELY an eyesore. I did expect the result after I finished the test, but still, not that lucky (NKB - Nasib Kurang Baik).
Total of 10 A+'s and an A. The "straight" word isn't there for me. Sigh... I just hope that the A won't affect my application for scholarships especially when they need someone to have straight A+ as Chinese Language is an extra subject (Heard so? Not sure.).
Mood: Normal. Not happy not sad. But satisfied. :/
Currently aiming for dentistry for my degree hope I don't need to pay much (ie get a scholarship). Anywhere will do. God bless me and good luck.
Friday, 22 March 2013
Sunday, 17 March 2013
Post NS aka PLKN
I don't want to be home. Utter loneliness.
After crying for SO many rounds at KIA, I was dog tired. I didn't want to cry but since there were too many twigs in the airport that they entered our eyes, I had no choice. Slept for 13 hours and found myself alone. I used to be the one waking my lazy-awful dorm mates up but today I found no one. Logged in to Facebook, pictures, statuses, comments keep bringing in memories that I wouldn't even want to remember and forget.
A brief description of my wonderful lazybones in L1 and L2 Kem Puncak Permai :
- Nigger O
- Pillow D
- Blackie F
- Glutton KJ
- White SH
- Doraemon V
- Little brother J
- Dog S
- Sex maniac E
etc...
You people are many many many precious gifts from God to me, who intersected my life and gave me joy.
If you bumped into this post and identified yourself, please do remember that this "sexay laday" is missing you badly in Kuching every moment. I miss and love you guys. All the best.
After crying for SO many rounds at KIA, I was dog tired. I didn't want to cry but since there were too many twigs in the airport that they entered our eyes, I had no choice. Slept for 13 hours and found myself alone. I used to be the one waking my lazy-awful dorm mates up but today I found no one. Logged in to Facebook, pictures, statuses, comments keep bringing in memories that I wouldn't even want to remember and forget.
A brief description of my wonderful lazybones in L1 and L2 Kem Puncak Permai :
- Nigger O
- Pillow D
- Blackie F
- Glutton KJ
- White SH
- Doraemon V
- Little brother J
- Dog S
- Sex maniac E
etc...
You people are many many many precious gifts from God to me, who intersected my life and gave me joy.
If you bumped into this post and identified yourself, please do remember that this "sexay laday" is missing you badly in Kuching every moment. I miss and love you guys. All the best.
Thursday, 14 February 2013
CNY 2013
Time flies. The Chinese New Year festival for me this year is a little different from the previous years.
1. I'm botak (bald).
2. I spent most of my 5-day holiday with my friends rather than relatives.
3. I have a KL friend with me, staying at my house for two days.
What I did:
- Visiting
- Steamboat
- Bistro
- Shopping
- Movie
- Music
Special thanks to
- BZM for playing the Gu Zheng for me. Luv it!
- O-nil being our driver for a day.
Leaving back to camp tomorrow. Looking forward to it, but I'll definitely miss sleeping late and waking up late. :S
1. I'm botak (bald).
2. I spent most of my 5-day holiday with my friends rather than relatives.
3. I have a KL friend with me, staying at my house for two days.
What I did:
- Visiting
- Steamboat
- Bistro
- Shopping
- Movie
- Music
Special thanks to
- BZM for playing the Gu Zheng for me. Luv it!
- O-nil being our driver for a day.
Leaving back to camp tomorrow. Looking forward to it, but I'll definitely miss sleeping late and waking up late. :S
Sunday, 10 February 2013
蛇年2013
新的一年到了！去龙迎蛇。
鞭炮、烟花战斗中。。。
开始发觉，人在不同年纪，过年的意义也不同，甚至越大越没感觉（包括我）。年一年一年的过，时间一点一点溜走。人越大，越接近现实，以往童年时的天真无邪的幻想随之抹去。
但，我依然很开心，我又有多一年的时间来把该做的事做了，多一年的时间来想梦想前进。
愿今年，我+家人+朋友+大家能万事大吉，心想事成，更重要：身体健康！
愿 SPM 成绩全A+。:D
鞭炮、烟花战斗中。。。
开始发觉，人在不同年纪，过年的意义也不同，甚至越大越没感觉（包括我）。年一年一年的过，时间一点一点溜走。人越大，越接近现实，以往童年时的天真无邪的幻想随之抹去。
但，我依然很开心，我又有多一年的时间来把该做的事做了，多一年的时间来想梦想前进。
愿今年，我+家人+朋友+大家能万事大吉，心想事成，更重要：身体健康！
愿 SPM 成绩全A+。:D
Thursday, 7 February 2013
Semester Break aka CNY holiday
I'm back home! Got so used to the lifestyle and the bathroom of my dorm and the shower nozzle. Feeling a little weird now. Even my typing speed has deteriorated tremendously. Clicking skills - same fate.
It's Chinese New Year soon, year of the snake. I need to get out of home, try to blend into the chinese new year mood as I feel like I totally disconnected with the world outside all the time in camp. The radio is helping. New year songs. Doesn't help much.
Met a whole bunch of new friends from Kuching and Kuala Lumpur. Some KL people are super nice, but some are quite "lan si" (cantonese: proud) and "la la" (cantonese: gangster). Credits to Vivi and Jobs being my Cantonese teachers. :D Both of them are from KL. Awesome homo sapien s.
Regarding the diary, I did write it! I'll type it all out here after I've completed the whole programme. Promise. But promises are meant to be broken. :P
Looking forward to a joyful New Year and a meaningful camp life later.
Ciao.
It's Chinese New Year soon, year of the snake. I need to get out of home, try to blend into the chinese new year mood as I feel like I totally disconnected with the world outside all the time in camp. The radio is helping. New year songs. Doesn't help much.
Met a whole bunch of new friends from Kuching and Kuala Lumpur. Some KL people are super nice, but some are quite "lan si" (cantonese: proud) and "la la" (cantonese: gangster). Credits to Vivi and Jobs being my Cantonese teachers. :D Both of them are from KL. Awesome homo sapien s.
Regarding the diary, I did write it! I'll type it all out here after I've completed the whole programme. Promise. But promises are meant to be broken. :P
Looking forward to a joyful New Year and a meaningful camp life later.
Ciao.
Wednesday, 2 January 2013
Pre - PLKN aka NS
I decided to pen a few words here before leaving to National Service. But I have nothing much to scribble about.
I will miss a lot of things at home.
Bed, food, computer, people, phone, time.
Most probably for normal kids they'll miss their rooms etc, but for me, I'll miss MUSIC the most. Sigh. 75 days without music. How am I going to survive? Dry soul. Malnourished brain. I've come to the fact that the only instrument I'll be having is my vocal cord. And every day listening to 4'33''. Not that bad either. And I hope that I'll meet some friends who love music as much as I do there, to suffer together. Teehee.. And of course build new music-based friendship!
I even think of calling a friend every weekend to ask him play his piano for me through the phone. He agreed! :D Huge investment, but if not, how to quench my desire for music?
4th January - the very first day of a new "era". I hope this 75 days will be a beneficial, unforgettable, fun, exciting journey of life, and of course worth my 75 days. If I were not chosen, I would have started piano, guitar, violin, cello and continued my Yang Qin lessons. ARGH! Plans aborted.
To make this 75 days a memorable one, I really plan to start writing a diary. Ya, plans always don't work. *rolls eyes*
Anticipating. Worried. Tired. Excited.
Ciao.
I will miss a lot of things at home.
Bed, food, computer, people, phone, time.
Most probably for normal kids they'll miss their rooms etc, but for me, I'll miss MUSIC the most. Sigh. 75 days without music. How am I going to survive? Dry soul. Malnourished brain. I've come to the fact that the only instrument I'll be having is my vocal cord. And every day listening to 4'33''. Not that bad either. And I hope that I'll meet some friends who love music as much as I do there, to suffer together. Teehee.. And of course build new music-based friendship!
I even think of calling a friend every weekend to ask him play his piano for me through the phone. He agreed! :D Huge investment, but if not, how to quench my desire for music?
4th January - the very first day of a new "era". I hope this 75 days will be a beneficial, unforgettable, fun, exciting journey of life, and of course worth my 75 days. If I were not chosen, I would have started piano, guitar, violin, cello and continued my Yang Qin lessons. ARGH! Plans aborted.
To make this 75 days a memorable one, I really plan to start writing a diary. Ya, plans always don't work. *rolls eyes*
Anticipating. Worried. Tired. Excited.
Ciao.
Tuesday, 1 January 2013
感慨
老爸换上了一个新的日历。每年当他换上的时候，我会在想，这么厚的日历，要多久才能把它一张一张撕掉，又不能作弊先撕呢？但，每天每天慢慢撕掉，不知不觉就撕完了。
撕掉了纸，
也撕掉了时间，
也撕掉了青春，
也撕掉了幼稚，
也撕掉了记忆。
挂上了新的日历，也等于放上了365天的问号，放上了一个纯白的一年，等着我们去谱写、填满。
2012这一年，充满了喜悦、刺激、压力、惊险、感动、感慨、障碍、选择等。
2013，是个大大的问号。 ？？？
让我们以最真诚、最勇敢、最有能量、最阳光的心来走下这崭新的一年。祝福大家2013平安顺利，万事如意，身体健康。
奇葩 上
撕掉了纸，
也撕掉了时间，
也撕掉了青春，
也撕掉了幼稚，
也撕掉了记忆。
挂上了新的日历，也等于放上了365天的问号，放上了一个纯白的一年，等着我们去谱写、填满。
2012这一年，充满了喜悦、刺激、压力、惊险、感动、感慨、障碍、选择等。
2013，是个大大的问号。 ？？？
让我们以最真诚、最勇敢、最有能量、最阳光的心来走下这崭新的一年。祝福大家2013平安顺利，万事如意，身体健康。
奇葩 上
Thursday, 27 December 2012
Battle
A battle between my left brain and my right brain;
A battle between dreams and dreams;
A battle between fantasies and realities;
All I could do,
Is to struggle to keep my mind in control,
Is to wait for the battle to end by its own,
Is to let time solve the battles.
Dare to dream, you'll succeed,
How true is this?
Dream high, far-fetched,
How real is this?
Afraid of dreaming,
A coward I am?
When dreams are 1000 feet high in the clouds,
With a bottomless grave underneath,
Are you daring enough to pursue the 1000 feet
ignoring the grave, out of sight,
And end up falling helplessly, might?
As for now,
Do I just notice the layers of oxygen above,
And forget there's a veil covering tanks of carbon monoxide underneath;
Or am I imagining the layers of carbon monoxide above,
And forget there's still tonnes of oxygen behind the veil?
A battle between dreams and dreams;
A battle between fantasies and realities;
All I could do,
Is to struggle to keep my mind in control,
Is to wait for the battle to end by its own,
Is to let time solve the battles.
Dare to dream, you'll succeed,
How true is this?
Dream high, far-fetched,
How real is this?
Afraid of dreaming,
A coward I am?
When dreams are 1000 feet high in the clouds,
With a bottomless grave underneath,
Are you daring enough to pursue the 1000 feet
ignoring the grave, out of sight,
And end up falling helplessly, might?
As for now,
Do I just notice the layers of oxygen above,
And forget there's a veil covering tanks of carbon monoxide underneath;
Or am I imagining the layers of carbon monoxide above,
And forget there's still tonnes of oxygen behind the veil?
Tuesday, 25 December 2012
Christmas 2012
Christmas this year is a bit different from the previous 16 Christmases before. Being a Buddhist, my family doesn't celebrate Christmas at all. This year I went caroling with my besties.
HEART-WARMING. This is what comes to my mind that moment. Even though we don't know each other, there's like a special bond between everyone. We sing together. Talk. Eat. We are like we have known each other well. Really joyous. And merry. :D
~Rudolph the red nose reindeer.. ~
Wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Have a good year ahead! GO AND STRIVE FOR WHAT YOU WANT! Santa only gives presents to good kids. :)
HEART-WARMING. This is what comes to my mind that moment. Even though we don't know each other, there's like a special bond between everyone. We sing together. Talk. Eat. We are like we have known each other well. Really joyous. And merry. :D
~Rudolph the red nose reindeer.. ~
Wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Have a good year ahead! GO AND STRIVE FOR WHAT YOU WANT! Santa only gives presents to good kids. :)
Monday, 24 December 2012
梦想与梦想的碰撞，梦想与现实的差距
从小志愿（梦想？）就想当名医生，至于为什么，我也不懂，就是单纯认为非常适合我（但也不知道真假）。那白大褂、听诊器，激励着我内心的欲望憧憬。那些穿着这东东的，我认为更是好看、威风、有权威、伟大。
我非常爱看有关医生医院医学的电视剧。因为往往在看这些电视剧后，必定有所体会、感触，心灵也会遭到抨击。最近熬夜追看完一部中国电视剧〈心术〉，心中更有无数感慨领悟。
信、望、爱。
信念、希望、疼爱。
人不是为讨厌你的人活着。
生命是脆弱的，无常。
.....等等.....
但，当医生这个狂野的梦想，在高中毕业后，在观察了现实与梦想的差距，开始动摇。我爱自由，我爱自己的生活，我爱怎样就怎样，我爱旅游，我爱睡、我爱简单，我爱玩，不爱压力 - - 这些完全与医生这职业挂不上钩。医生忙，要面对残酷的生死，难搞的医患关系，增添了我对这职业的害怕。他们都说电视剧是虚拟的，不实际。
我色盲。这是最大的阻碍。曾经问过一些读着医科的人，问他们色盲能读医科否。不能。这个答案真把我逼疯。色盲，不是我能改变的，连上帝也改变不了的事实。把这件事告诉朋友，他们都震惊，像我一个读书这么厉害的人（我不认为如此）竟然是个红色绿色分不清的人。但有个朋友说，“你色盲没关系，你不是盲的。” 那时的震撼！
上帝给了我一个较好的头脑，就剥夺了我分辨颜色的权利，这就是公平？
从上面说提到的电视剧，有个情节是这样的：有个脑子里长瘤的孩子，生命将结束，瘤子位置不好，手术难做，但始终医生替孩子做了。手术过程顺利，但术后却面瘫了。他爸说，“我孩子不死就好，没有好事全都冲着你来的。”
我想想，是有道理的。
回到正题，我有问了个医生，他说色盲可以当医生，加上我有认识一个色盲的医生，都干的很好，我生命真是向死里复活了一般。当时也知道当医生这碗饭难吃，但我直觉还是认为老天把我贬到凡间就是当医生的，仍然觉得我应该当个医生，跟医生这个行业有不朽的缘分。这是坚持，还是愚蠢？还是不见棺材不流泪？
大马医生爆满，毕业后难找工作，也让我多了一分迟疑。有当医生的朋友说，“你不是很有兴趣，千万别当。” 他的这句话让我犹豫，我是兴趣，还是对医生这行业有太美好的想象？我不知道，真的。
读了一医生的部落格，阐述了种种当医生的不好，是有些些的退缩，死灰复燃。我曾经试图磨灭我当医生那热忱，死灰复燃。决心不够，还是根本无法磨灭？
理性的分析，我的梦想不适合我这样的人（看看第四段吧）；但感性的想，我依然对当医生有着莫名，难以形容的感觉。
路过的人，给些看法建议吧，因为我真的不知道。
我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道！
我非常爱看有关医生医院医学的电视剧。因为往往在看这些电视剧后，必定有所体会、感触，心灵也会遭到抨击。最近熬夜追看完一部中国电视剧〈心术〉，心中更有无数感慨领悟。
信、望、爱。
信念、希望、疼爱。
人不是为讨厌你的人活着。
生命是脆弱的，无常。
.....等等.....
但，当医生这个狂野的梦想，在高中毕业后，在观察了现实与梦想的差距，开始动摇。我爱自由，我爱自己的生活，我爱怎样就怎样，我爱旅游，我爱睡、我爱简单，我爱玩，不爱压力 - - 这些完全与医生这职业挂不上钩。医生忙，要面对残酷的生死，难搞的医患关系，增添了我对这职业的害怕。他们都说电视剧是虚拟的，不实际。
我色盲。这是最大的阻碍。曾经问过一些读着医科的人，问他们色盲能读医科否。不能。这个答案真把我逼疯。色盲，不是我能改变的，连上帝也改变不了的事实。把这件事告诉朋友，他们都震惊，像我一个读书这么厉害的人（我不认为如此）竟然是个红色绿色分不清的人。但有个朋友说，“你色盲没关系，你不是盲的。” 那时的震撼！
上帝给了我一个较好的头脑，就剥夺了我分辨颜色的权利，这就是公平？
从上面说提到的电视剧，有个情节是这样的：有个脑子里长瘤的孩子，生命将结束，瘤子位置不好，手术难做，但始终医生替孩子做了。手术过程顺利，但术后却面瘫了。他爸说，“我孩子不死就好，没有好事全都冲着你来的。”
我想想，是有道理的。
回到正题，我有问了个医生，他说色盲可以当医生，加上我有认识一个色盲的医生，都干的很好，我生命真是向死里复活了一般。当时也知道当医生这碗饭难吃，但我直觉还是认为老天把我贬到凡间就是当医生的，仍然觉得我应该当个医生，跟医生这个行业有不朽的缘分。这是坚持，还是愚蠢？还是不见棺材不流泪？
大马医生爆满，毕业后难找工作，也让我多了一分迟疑。有当医生的朋友说，“你不是很有兴趣，千万别当。” 他的这句话让我犹豫，我是兴趣，还是对医生这行业有太美好的想象？我不知道，真的。
读了一医生的部落格，阐述了种种当医生的不好，是有些些的退缩，死灰复燃。我曾经试图磨灭我当医生那热忱，死灰复燃。决心不够，还是根本无法磨灭？
理性的分析，我的梦想不适合我这样的人（看看第四段吧）；但感性的想，我依然对当医生有着莫名，难以形容的感觉。
路过的人，给些看法建议吧，因为我真的不知道。
我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道。我不知道！
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